I don't know if everybody knows this already but we are moving in many different ways. First, we are trying to sell the house and get some land and build an affordable house so that we are debt free. We feel God moving us in different ways, for example we are changing churches. VERY HARD! I love fellowship... a lot! But I don't and I think most of us in the family feel that God is calling us elsewhere. SO, Dad accepted a position as Youth Pastor/Music guy. I really think God will teach me something through this and hopefully influence the people around me in a positive way.
We have been out and about a lot recently looking at land/houses. FUN! I REALLY LIKE THAT! But it is very hard to not get attached to a place or set my affections on something. There is a place I really like... Really like. But it might not happen. I don't know why but it probably wont, so I'm trying to just let it go. I really wont be here much longer anyways. I think. Needless to say there is much uncertainty. I don't know what house we will get, I don't know what I will be doing at our new church. I don't now this, I don't know that. I feel God moving me toward the Military. The Army Rangers. Scary, Exciting, Hard. It's a mixture of the three. Mom doesn't want that to happen. She thinks that if someone is to be shot its me. It could be, it might not be. Yesterday Mom brought up real estate since I enjoy finding properties and planning a route and researching those things. She said I should look into it. You have to be 18. Figures. I was thinking it could be a good part time job until I go to the Army. So I said "Hey Mom, I have to be 18 to be a real estate agent... That's to bad." She says "That's not far off." She didn't take the hint. I may be wrong but she was trying to make me consider something else. I will. But what God says goes. Thanks Mom.

It is almost December. YAY!!! It is one of my favorite times of the year. This Christmas is particularly exciting because it lands on a sunday!!! Wow. I am really looking forward to it. Our church is going to be doing something special with christmas music... I'm not excactly sure about what all is going to happen but I am really looking forward to it. I don't know how many people will be there. Everyone could be on vacation, or everyone and their brothers freinds will come... I am hoping for a good turn out.




AWANA is tonight. Finally!!! I have really missed my class. The table in my classroom is too small now so Lou made some special little cushions for all the little kids. Thank you Lou!



School has been great. I looked at all the requirments for my transcript recently and I am almost finished with all of them. I need to finish the two science classes I'm in now and finish economic and algebra 2. After that I will be done with all the reqiurements. Accually I need to take some language courses. But that is for later I just need to finish out the math, science, and history reqiurements, and I will be freed up to do a little bit more. But since I am only in my sophomore year I can relax a little... No need to panic.

A good day... I got some money refereeing a soccer game. Church was good the music sounded great!

300!!!

This is my 300th post!!!! O yeah!
I read my Henry Blackaby devotional this morning, it was about king Asa. He faced powerful enemies from Ethiopia(I think it was Ethiopia) he trusted in God and was delivered. The next time he faced an enemy it was weaker and he didn't trust in God. He relied on the strength of his army and he failed.

As I read that I thought about his enemy. The weak one. WITHOUT relying on God THEY were delivered.
God supported them??? No. I think it is interesting how God taught and helped Asa by supporting his enemies in battle. Asa probably thought God had turned against him, it was just the opposite. I wonder how many times I have felt abandoned when God is working right beside me to teach me.

Ive been thinking really hard recently. But I don't really want to talk to anyone about it. I've only told one person about what I've been feeling. I'm a bit scared, inspired, excited. Praying a lot.
Pray for me to make good decisions.

Getting set up

I have been really wondering/worrying about what I am setting my life up for. I spend most days now doing school for about half the day and then swimming, reading, or doing something with my siblings. What have I accomplished in life.
Strangely I feel that the greatest time in my life, when I felt most worth and fullness was when I played soccer. Particularly in Colorado. I had the best chance to share God's word with my teammates then I have ever had anytime else. I have many regrets for the way I did some things then. Sometimes I felt as if I had totally failed, that I was working against the kingdom of God.
But I always had something I was praying for or working towards, I could think on it and it was also a great lesson to me. As we moved to Arkansas I left that. Still sometimes I wonder what good it really did. If anything changed because of all that happened, or did I just build a hate for Christianity.
Recently I have wondered to myself what I am doing now. What purpose am I working toward. Think of Math... A great part of my life has been devoted to math. It is something that I find myself thinking about quite often even when I am not really working on it. What good is it?
My Mom and Dad don't remember the algebra they learned at my age because they have no need to. Who cares what X is? Not them. Math does help me develop my mind, it gives me something to think on, but will I need it later? Probably Not. But it is good to have that around to help me think and to fill my time. But I am starting to realize that it doesn't really matter. All the times I get stressed and worn out trying to finish a lesson are unnecessary because it simply doesn't matter. What should I fill my time with? What should I pursue? Or more accurately, What am I pursuing?
I have a dream to start a giant ministry in a sports complex. A sport will pull someone into a building nothing else. I haven't worked out all the details yet but I would like to have an all year VBS type of thing going. It would explain the Bible throughout the year in a chronological order.
There would be many different thing happening. That is my dream. I don't know how it could become possible, or exactly what i would do in it, but I have a few ideas forming and to me it's worth a good bunch of thought and prayer.
I'm not sure how I am working toward that, but I am trying to have a direction in life.

Part 2

Deuteronomy 7:2
New International Version (NIV)
And when the LORD your God has delivered them over to you and you have defeated them, then you must destroy them totally. Make no treaty with them, and show them no mercy.

Is God against fighting? God just told Israel to have no mercy and kill all the nations that oppose them. God told them to fight. He wanted to secure His people. He was being a good steward of His chosen people. Protecting them. Shouldn't we do likewise?

John 2:21
But the temple He had spoken of was His body.

This verse was after He told the pharisees "Tear down this temple and in three days I will build it again." Our bodies are the temples of God! We should take care of each other! Protect each other and ourselves.
That is one of the reasons that martial arts are beneficial.